The Bipolar Lock keeper

The amazing Mrs D was born. Happy Birthday lovely Natalie ❤️

Mood 7

Sleep: took a tablet 11pm to 2:30am & 5am to 7am. Total 5.5 hours.

Now a caveat

What follows is my truth. Others may have a different view of events 😎

Six years ago today, I came into the school office I shared with Nat with her present. She immediately clocked that something was not right. I said it’s your birthday, we can talk about that tomorrow but it didn’t work

What had happened the previous evening is that my life was unexpectedly turned upside-down. My world pivoted on it’s axis as I was told something that changed my life forever and in that moment, I was lied to by the person I trusted most in the world.

In the coming days as details were drip-fed, I was given “hope” that the situation could be fixed when it obviously couldn’t. The whole truth did out eventually – it always does! but those days were some of the worst of my life.

I was wronged and as I said yesterday when that happens I fight back. Light the blue touch paper!

As divorce proceedings were started, I took back control of a difficult situation but a few very difficult months followed. I still have a copy of the divorce petition drafted by her lawyer. I read it from time to time, just to remind me how crazy the legal system in this country is. “Unreasonable behaviour” really? Comparitively speaking – pot kettle black.

However, during these dark times some amazing things happened.

They say never meet your heroes.

In the few days that followed I had a ticket to see Frank Turner at O2 Academy in Oxford. I saw on his website he was due to play an intimate set in a record store in town & sign some records. I decided to go along and as luck would have it I was first in the queue to meet him. He asked me how I was doing but I couldnt hold back the tears. He couldn’t have been nicer. Thank you FTHC. Here’s a photo from that meeting

I also booked a holiday to Peru and trekked the Salkantay route to Macchu Pichu & have been to some other amazing places since.

I think I’m an honest, trusting and generous person & if I let you into my life, we will be friends forever. If you betray me, well God help you 🧛.

It took a long time to not think about what happened that day but time is a great healer. I will never forget that day – it is burnt into me and I don’t think I’ll forgive it either – just don’t have that gene.

What it has given me is freedom & independence. I am not beholden to anyone and I ❤️ it.